Carnivore Diet - 3 Months In


  1. Digestion still isn’t optimal, but I have more good days than bad days. Noticed a minor improvement by adding in digestive enzymes. 

  2. Dry skin. Could be Winter, could be the diet, could be I’m not drinking sufficient water. 

  3. Canker sores: Left cheek, by back teeth. I’ve had them more often in the last couple of months. They commonly go away, but come right back. 

  4. Under-eye bags: They look worse and are tough to get rid of despite cold spoons, tea bags, and under-eye creams. Wrinkles seem worse too :(

  5. Histamines: I’m still having histamine issues, albeit more mild. Could be the mega pollen blast we’ve had this year. Weather is also dry, and the house is extra dusty due to the wind. Red itchy skin, usually on my neck. I take “Histamine Scavenger” when it appears. 

  6. Headaches: I’ve had a couple of doozies this month. Bad, but not the horrible, blinding migraines I used to have. 

  7. Mood has been weird this month.

  8. Sporadic, infrequent brain fog this month. Comes and goes. Spacing out more. The good news is, on good days my brain feels like it’s all systems go.  

  9. Hard “nap days.” I’m not sure what this is about. I wake up in the morning with good energy, feel OK. Around 10am, I’ve gotten so drowsy I need to rest. I lay down and crash hard for two to five hours. A nap? I wake up groggy and kinda foggy. This has happened three times since I’ve started the diet. It’s unusual, a bit like narcolepsy. I literally cannot stay awake. I don’t know why this happens. 

  10. The cough from hell: I started coughing around middle March when I experimented with dairy. For about a week I indulged in a teaspoon per day of heavy cream in my coffee. I was also eating cheese like I could eat cheese. I didn’t go overboard on either, I thought. When the cough started, I dropped all milk products. Originally, I gave up milk products many years ago. This recent test was to see if I could tolerate it. I can’t. Even so, the cough has persisted and ranges from annoying throat clearing to full on hacking. My present theories include: Pollenpocolypse, dry weather, histamine reactions, dehydration. It seems to come and go and is intensified by bacon and shit quality meat from restaurants. I am also a smoker, but I’ve never had a cough like this and it definitely started when I consumed milk products. It doesn’t feel like it’s coming from my lungs, but rather post-nasal drip, perhaps. 

  11. Full moon flares: Staticy vision, fatigue, joint pain. Less intense. 

  12. Stress is manifesting as depression. Because I’m feeling better, I’ve started doing EVERYTHING. I’m working like a dog, going back to school, started a new business, writing, editing, reading, being me, everything!! I’ve gone insane! And now because I can’t do it all, I’m hitting low points that translate into inactivity. I’m overwhelmed. After 3 years of doing nothing, I’ve gone off the deep end. I need to slow down. 

  13. I can’t stay up passed 10pm. By 9pm I’m getting sleepy, by 10 I’m falling asleep on the couch.

  14. Eating bad food (cheating) results in louder symptoms. The good news is, the louder the pain, the more resolve you have in not eating that way anymore.


  1. Energy is still up. Except for hard nap days, which are frequent.

  2. I’m able to use my camera now and can work for hours without getting fatigued or dead on my feet. In fact, I’m spending most of my days working on my projects and my new business. My muscles feel stronger. 

  3. Digestion IS better. Not perfect, but better. You poop less on the carnivore diet. 

  4. Period was less intense this month. My periods have always been 10 days long. 2 horrible, stay in bed, heavy days, and 8 spotting days. Still did 10 days, but flow was lighter. Clots were smaller. Sorry if that’s gross, we need to talk about it. 

  5. I can exercise more than ever. I’m doing moderate exercise now and I don’t feel beat up after. I can also walk to get coffee in the morning which is about a half mile there and back. 

  6. Nail growth? I feel like my nails are growing quicker. 

  7. Bloating is gone and hasn’t come back. 

  8. I feel less inflamed all over. I still have joint pain, but it’s less extreme. 

  9. Weight is oscillating, but trending down. I’m currently at 131. I started at 136. 

  10. Dizziness is down about 95% with the infrequent (rare) off balance feeling. 

  11. Pimples seem to come and go faster. I haven’t had any of those big subterranean ones in a while. 

  12. I don’t know if I’m imagining this, but I feel like my skin is healing faster. I get a cut and it’s gone in a few days. 

  13. My emotional stability is better than it’s ever been! I still get mad or annoyed, but I handle it better. I also am dealing with mild depression that really feels manageable and isn’t stopping me from getting things done. As I touched on above, I have a moderate, stress-overload, depression at the moment. It’s not as crippling as it used to be. It’s essentially, “why can’t I do everything?” depression.  


Cheating is an inherent part of all this. We're human. It’s not easy to be super strict with anything in life. It takes a practice and a while to adapt. In the early days, you do miss your old ways of eating. The bad ways. For me, cheating has manifested in grabbing a few french fries when they come with my food - even if I didn’t order them. I tell myself, “A few won’t hurt.” But it does. I suspect these “few“ fries have resulted in my weird mood and an increase in extra greasy zits. I also have a feeling it starts you back at zero. I try not to beat myself up about it and vow to do better. I don’t feel good when I eat bad food. Dealing with WHY you need to cheat is deep level emotional stuff. Most of us stress eat and I’ve been under stress. I have to remind myself french fries don’t actually make me feel better.


I’m good. I’m working, my mood is the best it’s been in years, and I have strength to (mostly) do the things I want to do. Occasionally, I still have to lay down, but it’s clearly not like it was. On the Carnivore diet you’re expected to eat loads of organ meats. I don’t. I have a hard time with them. I take a cod liver oil supplement and have started taking zinc and vitamin C as a test to see how I feel. I also take Magnesium/Calcium (Calm) before bed. I need to drink more water. Water is crucial on this diet. I will continue to work on my stress and go easy on myself. Being out in the world again is more strenuous than you think. It requires a slow, easy, re-entry. I will proceed with this diet as long as I feel good on it. As for the cough, I think I need to buckle down, stop being lazy and stop ordering meat from restaurants for a while. No more bacon. I need to drink more water. UPDATE: As of April 23rd, the cough has faded, although I still have a bit of phlegm in the back of my throat in the mornings and evenings before bed. 

Like everything, Carnivore requires tweaking. I wish it wasn’t so. I’m so tired of trying to figure everything all out. I suppose it’s because everyone is different and we all require different things. However, overall, things seem better in general and the stamina I’m getting is remarkable. I don’t expect Carnivore to be a magic bullet. Nor do I predict it will solve ALL of my issues. Most notably, what it’s done is get me out of bed and off the couch. The energy is awesome and being less inflamed is great. I also enjoy the mellow mood it causes. I can feel a major difference there. I’m under a lot of stress right now, but don’t feel like keeling over. To put it into perspective, the highest level of depression I felt with Lyme was a 10. What I have now is around a 2 or 3.


If you’re not able to eat nose to tail, supplements are necessary. I’m having trouble eating organ meats. I don’t like them. Full disclosure, I don’t always remember to take these daily. This is a journey and it’s imperative to be kind to yourself when you fuck up.

  • Cod liver oil

  • Vitamin C

  • Calcium Magnesium (Calm)

  • Zinc

  • Electrolytes in water


Compared to last month, not a whole lot has changed. Improvements are minor, but there are improvements.

  • *Hashimoto's - Resolved with thyroid meds pre-carnivore

  • Body shaking/vibrating - Have not noticed this month

  • Central serous retinopathy - Has not progressed

  • Seeing stars - Occasional, rare

  • Bags under eyes - Getting better

  • Ridges on nails - Unchanged

  • Bacterial Vaginosis - Resolved and then appears to be making a come back. Not sure why. Perhaps experimental introduction to dairy set if off. I'm off milk again.

  • Poor circulation - Improving

  • Hot flashes - Gone

  • Insomnia - Gone

  • Brain fog - Some days I'm a genius, others I can't remember basic shit. Definitely not as bad as it was. I'm having more "on" days where I can grasp new concepts and can remember my to do lists.

  • Body odor - Something ticked when I started lyme killing herbs in 2016 and my body chemistry went whack. Got a bit worse with carnivore. Gross, but improving.

  • *Shoulder acne - Don't ask me why I had acne only on my shoulders, but that's mostly gone

  • Bruise easily - Better

  • . Body shaking/vibrating - Have not noticed this month

  • Central serous retinopathy - Has not progressed

  • Seeing stars - Occasional, rare

  • Bags under eyes - Same

  • Ridges on nails - Unchanged

  • Bacterial Vaginosis - Unresolved

  • Poor circulation - Improving

  • Hot flashes - Gone

  • Insomnia - Gone

  • Brain fog - Feels 90% gone

  • Body odor - Back for some reason. I assume it’s detox.

  • *Shoulder acne - Small flare ups

  • Bruise easily - Improved

  • Lightheaded/dizzy - Occasional and light. No more episodes of vertigo.

  • Barometric pressure headaches - It rained most of March. Haven’t noticed a problem. BP used to flatten me out.

  • Digestive issues (diarrhea, constipation, dull and sharp pain) - Improving

  • Occasional (horrible) sharp pain in colon area - Gone

  • Daily headaches - Gone

  • Migraines (1-2 per month) - Have had a few low grade headaches that require medication

  • Sinus pressure - Mostly gone

  • Bleeding gums - Improving

  • Jaw pain (Mostly on left side) - Occasional, rare

  • Heart palpitations - Improved

  • Muscle twitching - Very infrequent

  • *Mild to severe anxiety - Gone

  • *Mild to severe panic attacks - Gone

  • Doom and gloom - Gone

  • Lyme Rage - Gone gone gone!

  • *Mild to severe fatigue - I’m still tired, but it’s more like how I was before my Lyme diagnosis. I can work and get things done.

  • Neck and scalp pain, tightness - Present this month

  • Sciatica pain (both sides) - Comes and goes

  • *Tinea versicolor (back, torso) - Gone (that went with meds)

  • Abnormal periods - Recent Period was lighter

  • *Costochondritis - Gone

  • *Pressure in sternum - Gone

  • Gas, bloating - 99% gone

  • Everything I eat seems to upset my stomach - Gone

  • Dry sinuses - Mostly gone

  • Blocked sinuses - Mostly gone, I can now breathe through both sides of my nostrils

  • *Sore throat left side (two weeks and counting) - Gone

  • Feeling as though food isn't going down fast enough, difficulty swallowing - Totally gone

  • Pressure in ears, a feeling of fluid - Mostly gone. Had a bit during recent full moon

  • Occasional pressure in head, a feeling of fluid - Mostly gone. Had a bit during recent full moon

  • Depression - Gone

  • Eye floaters - Mostly gone

  • Occasional odd smell in sinuses (sour) - Gone!

  • Babesia - IDK

  • Bartonella - IDK

  • Epstein Barr - IDK

  • Burning feet - Mostly gone

TL/DR - I continue to feel good and although improvements are minor, things are going well. I will continue to eat this way until it no longer serves me.

Lyme + Carnivore

Time to Read: About 5-6 Minutes


I'm not finding a good deal of information regarding Lyme to Carnivore online. When I ask on the boards, I'm told to look up Mikhaila Peterson or Charlene Anderson. I've already looked them both up and as far as I can tell, there are only two people who have dealt with Lyme through the Carnivore diet; and only one who has totally cured it. Those aren't good numbers. They're out there, but the information is sparse. There are only two stories on said, when faced with a void, someone has to fill it. Might as well be me. I'll update on my experience with the diet for posterity and to aid others looking for answers. I am not an expert.

If you didn't read my long intro to the diet, start there. It's not really long, but the symptoms list in the middle is daunting. It’s important to mention I had stem cell therapy in January 2018. You can read about that here. Your results on the diet will differ. Because I had stem cells, which returned me to a 50-60% healthy state, I am not a baseline. However, I do not have a normal, Lyme free life. I still experience many of the same symptoms I’ve had for five years - to a lesser degree.

Not me. Random Viking Babe consuming meat flesh and the souls of her enemies.

Not me. Random Viking Babe consuming meat flesh and the souls of her enemies.

At two months in, I'm experiencing what feels like a major lyme flare. Headaches, sinus infection, body aches, massive light sensitivity, eye static, floaters, fatigue, hot flashes, torrential diarrhea, sensitive skin, worst acne of my life, mood swings, a phlegmy cough, under-the-surface anxiety, air hunger... basically all my Lyme symptoms - and there were a lot. However, they are significantly decreased when compared to this time last year. Still. I've been feeling so good, it's hard to have a flare; a reminder I'm not out of the woods yet. It's also the full moon. I've been having stomach cramps and my neck has been stiff/achy on the right side for about two weeks now. I've had bouts of light nausea, light dizziness/imbalance, and this sinus infection is kicking my ass. I use X-Clear for the sinus infection and that helps. My body odor is off the hook. I don’t bother with deodorant. My husband swears he doesn’t notice, but I do. It’s also Spring and a friend tells me this is when she flares the hardest. I guess I do too. Before stem cells and carnivore, I could never tell if it was the season or the Lyme. Both? I never had seasonal allergies until I got Lyme. I still don’t register for pollens on allergy tests, but they’re not always right.

The year so far has been up and down with the trend moving up. Overall, I do feel better and when my knees ache or my ribs burn, I have to remind myself it was worse a year ago. On Monday I spent the day in bed. The first day in bed in months. That was emotionally difficult. I'd almost forgotten what it was like to be trapped in my room, hardly able to stand. I felt like I was coming down with something. Is it the diet? The full moon? Something I’m eating? Spring? Why are there always more questions than answers? My left hand is shaking. 

My diet still comprises rib-eye (cooked in ghee and a dash of olive oil), duck eggs, coffee (almond milk - which is a no-no on the diet), cod, ground lamb, ground beef, with the occasional other types of steak and chicken - although chicken isn’t sitting with me well at the moment. My supplements are: Cod liver oil, potassium via pickle juice, Sole water in the AM, magnesium, electrolyte powder in my water. I drink about 40-60 ounces of water per day. I've given up stevia products for the time being. At the moment, I’m not very hungry. I eat because I think I should. When I do, I feel a bit ucky and have to lie down for a bit. My cat sleeps after she eats. Is this a carnivore thing? I have only lost about three pounds of water weight and bloat. If I lose ten I’ll hit my goal weight of 125 - I’m only 5’4 and that’s in the “I can wear what I want“ range for me. In the last couple of days I’ve noticed I’m having a hard time eating lamb burgers. They used to be fine, but now gross me out. I can barely get through the patty. Afterward I feel like hell. This seems to be a common symptom of the adaption phase. People in the forums say to “eat when you’re hungry.“ I couldn’t make it through a whole lamb burger today, but I forced myself. Big mistake. They also say, “If you feel bad, eat more meat.“ This doesn’t work for me. When I feel bad, eating makes it worse.

If you read the Carnivore forums, many people talk about how quick and relatively painless their adaption phase was. Some last a few days, others a few weeks. I feel like this has been going on two weeks or more. I'm not really keeping track at the moment. Is this the adaption phase? Does the diet cause die-off? Last night I had a cod fillet with butter and salt and today my stomach is in revolt. My tongue became puffy and white. Am I intolerant to butter now? I see people saying you become less tolerant to some foods as you progress. WTF? Why, butter? I thought we were friends!

If the diet causes die off, I'm in for a rollercoaster. My viral and bacterial load were/are: HHV6, Epstein Barr, Bartonella, and two types of Babesia. I also had/have Candida. FML. A year ago I tested negative for Candida, but if you’ve struggled with it, you know it’s tenacious and there is more than one type. I don’t feel totally clear, to be honest. If it’s true sugar and carbs feed Lyme bacteria, I’m gonna starve those fuckers out. I have not been properly tested for viruses or bacteria in over a year.

I'm hitting a low point. I feel like shit. Two weeks ago I was walking on air, today I'm slumped in close proximity to the toilet. Everyone says stick with it. The average response to "how long does it take to adapt" is 3-6 months. Note, this is all anecdotal evidence and there is little to no scientific data on this diet. Is it, first and foremost, an elimination diet and there is lots of science on that. The science says it’s good. Will I do this long term? I'll do it as long as I feel good. I'm confident that I currently feel bad due to an adaption or die off phase. I'm going to wait it out and see how I do. Truth is, I’m giving it a solid six months. My next course of action is to return to my LLMD (Lyme Literate Medical Doctor) and get re-tested. I figure six months should do. That puts me in July.

There are some notable figures in the Carnivore community who have done this diet long term (longer than six months): I will add more as I find them.

Charlene and JOE Anderson - 20 years

Perhaps the biggest Carnivore celeb, Charlene is not really online except small mentions on her husband's Twitter page. Last I checked, her Instagram was gone. I'll be honest, she's like a ghost. She is the only Lyme person who has "cured" Lyme with Carnivore long term. She is not active in the community. Charlene tends to be the example most people use, but it’s been over a year since an update. I’ve love to see how she’s doing in 2019. Charlene, are you out there? Do you have any Lyme symptoms left? Any issues to report? Anything you’re still working on?

Charles Washington - 10 years

Charles is best known for starting the Facebook group “Zeroing in on Health“ and began this way of eating to deal with a pre-diabetic diagnosis.

Amber O'Hearn - 10 years

Amber’s original intent with the diet was to lose weight. She discovered many other benefits and has continued. 

Kelly Hogan - 9 years

Overweight, lost her menstrual cycle and unable to conceive. After starting the diet, her cycle returned and she conceived two healthy children and has lost a lot of weight. 

Frank Trufano - 7 years

Former vegan, now outspoken about the dangers of veganism. His channel has lots of good information often with scientific data to support it. He can be staunch and opinionated about his views, but he provides good info. 

Dr. Shawn Baker - 2.5 years

An orthopedic (bones and muscle) surgeon and exercise enthusiast. He's one of the most outspoken about the diet and does quite a lot of videos about it. He’s also the elder (50+) person on this list.

sv3rige - 2 years

Probably the most extreme (radical?) YouTuber on the subject, sv3rige has been eating RAW meat for 2 years. He’s does interview with ex-vegans and talks at length about how stupid vegans are. It’s sometimes amusing. He is educated on the subject and his interviews are worth watching if you need validation for quitting veganism. You may also start to notice that the “ism“ in veganism directly relates to the philosophical belief pattern of the vegan diet - or why sv3rige thinks it’s a cult.

Mikhaila Peterson - 1 year

After suffering her entire life, Mikhaila switched to the diet in 2018. She's a worst-case scenario and has only recently confirmed a lyme diagnosis - Her transformation has been inspirational. She has some remaining Lyme symptoms, but as far as I can tell, she has at least nine different viruses. I have three. 

The Vegetable Police - 1 year

Former vegan, has had many health issues in the past. He's noticed many improvements to his health. His channel is probably the most amusing of them all. He approaches health and the carnivore diet with a sense of humor. He rarely bombards you with facts, but it’s interesting to see how he’s doing.

As you can see, there aren't a lot of people out there who have done this long term and only two with Lyme. Only one (Mikhaila) is writing about it. I don’t like that she’s now offering diet consulting on her site, but you can’t blame a girl for trying to make a living. The fact remains, she is better. I have not been able to find any other Lyme Carnivores logging their experiences. If you know of any, please send me the link.

Special Note: I’m not trying to make money or convince anyone. The information here is provided as a means of logging my experience for others to find. Especially the Lyme community. This is for posterity and if I can help someone, that’s enough. I want to help as much as I can. Lyme is a horrendous disease that ruins your life. I’m a writer, not a health guru. Carnivore is not my life or identity. It’s only how I eat.

Lymies: Have you tried this diet? Get in touch. How ya doing? Get in touch.

Infusio - One Year Later - The Carnivore Diet

Time to Read: 10-12 mins

In December 2018 I composed a long complaint about how I felt one year after Infusio. I deleted it. Long story short, I was nowhere near where I wished to be. During the holidays I had massive histamine reactions to EVERYTHING and was miserable. My entire body ached, and I was having a hard time justifying that I’d waited a full fucking year and didn’t feel much better. Truth? I felt a bit better. Not enough to live a normal life. I spent most of my days on the couch, my hormones were whacked, my periods were unusually heavy, and I was becoming increasingly discouraged. I was already on a restricted diet and everything I ate upset my stomach. I had diarrhea that wouldn’t quit. I was angry. An entire year and I didn’t have much to show for it. On rare days, I only spent 50% of my day on the couch, but I didn’t have good quality energy when I was up. I began thinking about next steps. It was clear I wasn’t one of the lucky ones. I would now have to delve into the complicated world of mast cell reactions, rare intolerances, genetics, autoimmune encephalitis, etc. And then I heard about the next, new phase of Infusio treatment called Exomes. When I saw the word posted on the Facebook stem boards I was like: No. Fuck no. Hell no. Don’t even! I could not entertain yet another Infusio treatment. I didn’t bother to read about it and still don’t even know what it is. There were plenty of people who improved with Infusio, didn’t do the home protocol, didn’t do ACT, and did not do Exomes. What the hell changed? Get it out of my face. No more. 

At the end of 2018 I was feeling hopeless. It was time to deal with reality: Infusio only got me so far and it wasn’t far enough. Not by a mile. I did not want to live my life with only a quarter of my normal energy, hypersensitive to everything, in chronic pain, and unable to eat. 



Around January 2019, my sister talked about “The Carnivore Diet.” I listened to her tell me about it, but it made no sense. How can you survive on only meat and water? It sounded like a boring death sentence. Around the holidays I upped my meat intake anyway - not because I wanted to become a carnivore. I realized it was the only thing not upsetting my stomach. I had one hamburger patty a day besides my normal grain-free, sugar-free, processed-free diet. After the patty, I didn’t feel sick or bloated. I wasn’t tired. The next week I had two plain meat meals a day. After two weeks I went all the way. Three meat meals a day. 

My pain subsided. My energy skyrocketed. Holy shit! I tried it for another week. No histamine reactions, great energy, no pain, brain fog lifted, my mood was amazing. It was like a miracle. I couldn’t believe it. I researched the diet and found an abundance of anecdotal evidence. It’s helping people! There were stories of people with Lyme and how they’d overcome it by switching to meat. It all sounded too good to be true.

SNAGS (some of which may be lyme and not the diet)

  • The adapting phase is like Keto-Flu - people are saying it can last anywhere from 3-6 months

  • The initial high has worn off, but I still have more energy than I did before Infusio

  • Digestion is wonky while my body gets used to it

  • Dry skin

  • Odd vibrations in head (once)

  • I don’t know how to cook meat and it’s sometimes frustrating

  • Buying meat. It’s gross.

  • Period fluctuating. 1st was great (less heavy, no cramps), 2nd was heavy, had big Lyme flare: Joint pain, lightheaded, mild anxiety, digestion pain, long emotional PMS, brain fog, vision static, very dry skin, return of costochondritis. This has been my normal for years.

  • It seems I can’t handle spices other than salt and pepper. Anything else and I get diarrhea.


  • Less pain

  • More premium quality energy

  • Haven’t had a migraine in over a month

  • Less susceptible to barometric pressure

  • No more bloating

  • Very little gas (TMI)

  • Sinuses are clear both sides

  • Feel satisfied when I eat

  • Lost 3 pounds (goes up and down)

  • No more insomnia. I go right to sleep at night

  • Overall Lyme symptoms have decreased (see list below)

  • My husband is cooking more!

  • No longer have to worry which ingredient in a meal is causing me issues. Was it the oil? The arugula? The olives? Pumpkin seeds? No more. If something upsets my stomach, I have a small list to check. It’s usually the spices.

The Massive List of Lyme Symptoms Post Carnivore

The majority of these symptoms were constant over the past five years.
*Asterisks indicate symptoms that had already improved before starting Carnivore.

  • *Hashimoto's - Resolved with thyroid meds pre-carnivore

  • HHV6 - IDK

  • Gluten intolerance - Who cares?

  • Dairy Intolerance - Still very active with milk and cheese. Eggs OK.

  • Eczema - Had disappeared pre-Lyme and returned a bit in December 2018, has improved and isn't bad

  • Candida - IDK, feels mostly gone

  • SIBO - Feels like it's improved

  • Inflammation - Way down

  • Constant health anxiety - Gone

  • Low cortisol - IDK

  • Low pregnenolone - IDK

  • Joint pain - Less

  • *Tongue tingling (kind of numb) - Gone

  • Throat feels tight - Gone

  • Puffy white tongue - Gone

  • Stomach pain (center, below ribs) - Gone

  • Pain in kidneys - Gone

  • Cold feet - Active

  • Pain in shoulders and left arm, elbow - Active, but less

  • Eye fatigue - Comes and goes as opposed to constant

  • Ringing in ears constantly - Active, less noticeable

  • Sweaty palms - Comes and goes

  • Dry skin - Active

  • *Shortness of breath, air hunger - Gone

  • 60. Body shaking/vibrating - Mostly gone, had a bunch of this in the first few weeks of diet change - felt like out of whack vagus nerve

  • Central serous retinopathy - Has not progressed

  • Seeing stars - Occasional, rare

  • Bags under eyes - Getting better

  • Ridges on nails - Unchanged

  • Bacterial Vaginosis - Resolved and then appears to be making a come back. Not sure why. Perhaps experimental introduction to dairy set if off. I'm off milk again.

  • Poor circulation - Improving

  • Hot flashes - Gone

  • Insomnia - Gone

  • Brain fog - Some days I'm a genius, others I can't remember basic shit. Definitely not as bad as it was. I'm having more "on" days where I can grasp new concepts and can remember my to do lists.

  • Body odor - Something ticked when I started lyme killing herbs in 2016 and my body chemistry went whack. Got a bit worse with carnivore. Gross, but improving.

  • *Shoulder acne - Don't ask me why I had acne only on my shoulders, but that's mostly gone

  • Bruise easily - Better

  • Lightheaded/dizzy - Mostly gone. No more episodes of vertigo.

  • Barometric pressure headaches - Improved

  • Digestive issues (diarrhea, constipation, dull and sharp pain) - Sharp pains are gone, others remain

  • Occasional (horrible) sharp pain in colon area - Gone

  • Daily headaches - Gone

  • Migraines (1-2 per month) - Haven't had one in a month

  • Sinus pressure - Mostly gone, discovered after 20 years I still CANNOT eat dairy

  • Bleeding gums - Mostly gone, gums are improving and are looking (dare I say) healthy. Before, felt like my teeth were loose

  • Jaw pain (Mostly on left side) - Gone

  • Heart palpitations - Improved

  • Muscle twitching - Very infrequent

  • *Mild to severe anxiety - Gone

  • *Mild to severe panic attacks - Gone

  • Doom and gloom - Gone

  • Lyme Rage - Gone gone gone!

  • *Mild to severe fatigue - Mostly gone. I spent 95% of my pre-Infusio days laying down. Post Infusio, I got to 50% of the day laying down.

  • Neck and scalp pain, tightness - Mostly gone

  • Sciatica pain (both sides) - Eh, comes and goes

  • *Tinea versicolor (back, torso) - Gone (that went with meds)

  • Abnormal periods - Recent Period was lighter

  • *Costochondritis - Gone

  • *Pressure in sternum - Gone

  • Gas, bloating - Mostly gone

  • Everything I eat seems to upset my stomach - Gone

  • Dry sinuses - Mostly gone

  • Blocked sinuses - Mostly gone, I can now breathe through both sides of my nostrils

  • *Sore throat left side (two weeks and counting) - Gone

  • Feeling as though food isn't going down fast enough, difficulty swallowing - Totally gone

  • Pressure in ears, a feeling of fluid - Mostly gone - dairy didn't help

  • Occasional pressure in head, a feeling of fluid - Gone

  • Depression - Gone

  • Eye floaters - Mostly gone

  • Occasional odd smell in sinuses (sour) - Gone!

  • Babesia - IDK

  • Bartonella - IDK

  • Epstein Barr - IDK

  • Burning feet - Mostly gone

TL/DR: This list demonstrates how the majority of my symptoms disappeared after switching to a carnivore diet.



When I was fifteen I became a vegetarian. I cut out all red meat. I was a bonafide member of Morrissey’s “Meat is Murder” club. In my early ‘20s I cut out poultry and dairy. I was devoted. I never cheated, and I accepted what I was doing was the best thing for me and the earth. I argued that vegetarianism was the best diet. I endured mockery and disdain. My Mexican family had a hard time coming to terms with my not eating chicharrones or carne asada. I held firm to my beliefs. I was right, they were wrong. Not to brag, but I was a vegetarian in the days before Garden Burgers. Most grocery stores didn’t even carry tofu.

Over the years I’ve had several doctors tell me I needed to eat meat. How dare they tell me what to do? They don’t know me! I should have listened. To be fair, I was a young kid with high ideals and an over-inflated sense of morality. I love animals and eating them was sickening. “Nothing with a face,” I used to say. I didn’t understand that consuming large quantities of (fruit and vegetable) FIBER was tearing up my gut or that carbs were sending me on a path toward diabetes. Why did I have stomach pain after eating kale? Why did alfalfa sprouts give me indigestion? The list of pain inducing vegetables was extensive. I could not eat soy or plant based products. The Impossible Burger made me bloated and gave me stomach pain for days. 

Vegetarianism/veganism/plant-based diets may work for some people. They don’t work for me. I have twenty-five years of personal experience on the matter. For me, vegetarianism was a blind chase down the wrong rabbit hole. Always pursuing “something else” to make the diet work. Always tweaking and hunting. I felt bad, but it couldn’t be the diet. Looking back, I feel like I was in a cult. If you told one of the Branch Davidians that David Koresh was a demented maniac, they could not (would not) believe you. They could not make the mental connection. Or telling a believer that God doesn’t exist. It’s not an option. God exists, and that’s that. I’m not saying people who believe in God are a cult, by the way. Vegetarianism was the same with me. I believed in a plant-based diet the way Branch Davidians believed in David Koresh. There was nothing anyone could say to sway me.

In over two decades, I never could understand why I didn’t feel good on a vegetarian diet. I felt like shit all the time, couldn’t lose weight, had low energy, was moody and irritated (sorry to all my former boyfriends), and physically fragile. In fact, my not being able to lift heavy things was a joke. I spent a lot of time researching herbs and supplements to make me feel better. I was one of the first people I know using tinctures and essential oils. Nothing worked. I thought, I have to keep looking. Something will turn up. Instead of dealing with the most obvious answer, I closed my eyes to the hard truth. I blamed my doctors or not taking high enough quality supplements. I needed to do more! So I spent the money. I saw naturopaths, bought expensive supplements, acupuncture, reiki, yoga, Pilates, hikes in nature, chiropractors, medical professionals, allergists. I blamed wheat, so I cut out wheat. I blamed all grains, so I cut out all grains. I blamed sugar and cut out sugar. I blamed fruit, so I cut out fruit. And all of this was before Lyme! After Lyme, I ran through the same ring-around-the-rosy and still ended up empty handed. So by the time I got to Carnivore, I’d tried everything, and I was desperate.


My Current Diet


Coffee, Eggs and bacon (or 1/4 lb ribeye)


Hamburger or lamb burger patty with butter


1/2 lb fatty ribeye or lamb chops - sometimes another patty if we’re strapped for time.


I went from taking upwards of 25-40 supplements a day to now taking potassium, magnesium, and cod liver oil

This is NOT perfect. It is ever-changing as I figure out what works for me.

Also known as “Zero Carb,” some call this “the ultimate elimination diet.” Most Lyme Literate doctors agree that sugar and carbs feed Lyme bacteria. Fruit is sugar. Quinoa is carbs. There is, if you’re interested, science on all this, but I don’t want to bore you or force it down your throat. For me, this has been my holy grail. It’s a complete turnaround and I feel like I am getting my life back. As you can see from the list above, it’s not 100% perfect, but I’m only a month in and I can function like a normal human being. I’m thinking about travelling. I’ve started physical therapy to regain my strength and rebuild the muscles that have atrophied in my back. 

this wasn’t an easy decision

I’ve been afraid to talk about this for a few weeks. As a former vegetarian, I know how people are. I know the dogma and I know all the arguments about saving the planet, animal cruelty, and industrial farming. Now that the brain fog has lifted, I realize just how much diet plays a role in our health. I don’t just realize it. I know it. That’s the difference. I once believed that vegetarianism was the way to go. How could it not be? Vegetables are fucking healthy. Right? Aside from the fact that vegan/vegetarian/plant-based is overly complicated, it’s filled with foods made to replicate meat. I now see it’s not for me and never was. If I retrace my lifelong health issues, most started in my teens and got worse right around the time I cut out all animal products. Coincidence? I don’t think so. I ask you to respect my journey. This was not an easy decision. The first time I ate meat I cried. I still have a hard time eating organ meats and if I think about the animal that died so I can live, I get kind of depressed. I only buy grass-fed meat from good sources. It costs more, but it’s worth it. I have to know the meat I consume had a nice life. Each meal is a gift. A gift of life. I was suffering, and I ended my suffering. I can no longer ignore that I need animal products in my diet. The extent of my recovery in just one month is obvious. 



I know a lot of Carnivores face scorn at consuming the rotted flesh of our Earth’s precious creatures. I get it. When I think about cows and lambs I get fuzzy feelings. So how can I eat them? I decided I didn’t want to die, that’s how. I was tired of hurting. I wanted to end my sickness. The more I thought about it, the more I investigated, the clearer it became. Humans have long survived on meat. My ancestors ate meat. It’s how they survived so I could be born. The trouble with eating meat isn’t the murder of animals. Animals eat animals and humans are animals. If you were out in the forest and you came across a hungry animal, you better believe it would eat you. Maybe not chipmunks, but definitely bears and wolves. For me, eating meat is a basic survival. The issue is industrial farming. The problem is abuse and chemicals and genetic engineering. But we’re evolved, right? We can elect not to eat meat. I chose for twenty-five years. I ate cardboard flavored Tofurkey every Thanksgiving for two-and-a-half decades. If I missed some magical trick to vegetarianism, then I’ll be the first to admit I was mistaken. Believe me when I say, I tried everything. I don’t want to go into how *monoculture plant-foods wreck the ground, leads to pesticide runoff, fertilizer runoff, desertification and kills many animals. Or how properly managed cattle actually builds topsoil, increases biodiversity, water retention and more. It’s a much longer conversation.


13 year old Matilda being adorable

13 year old Matilda being adorable

Around the same time I went Carnivore, I started making homemade raw food for my thirteen-year-old cat, Matilda. It involves chicken skins, thighs, hearts, livers, and grinding bones in a meat grinder. It’s revolting. However, she saw almost immediate results. Her coat is shiny, she has more vitality; she plays (she hasn’t played in years), and the white parts of her coat are white again. She RUNS up the stairs instead of moving slow like an old lady like she used to. Her mood has improved. She’s suffered with anxiety since she was a kitten and she’s more or less calm now. Canned cat food is shit and my baby deserves to eat her natural food. I should not ignore I now have stamina to prepare raw food for my cat. 

Let me end by saying, I’m not trying to convince YOU to go carnivore. I’m sharing what’s worked for me. I feel like a god-damn viking. A middle-aged viking who has just come back from a long sea voyage.

A special note to staunch Vegans:

I made the commitment to full veganism for around six months in 2010. You might think that’s not long enough. I was already more than halfway there. The final items I gave up to achieve full veganness were honey, gelatin, and cheese. I know and love many vegans. I understand and feel your empathic devotion. I know you love animals and the planet. I do too. We both have different ways of showing it. This is not your way, but it’s my way. I am not interested in being yelled at or engaged. Please respect that this is my journey. Imagine how hard it would be for you to eat meat. That’s what I went through out of sheer desperation. I hope you understand. You do you. Me do me. Thank you. 🖤

If you’re interested in learning more:

Infusio - ACT Days Three & Four

I did not write about days 3 and 4. I couldn’t. By the time I was done with the day, it was all a blur. When I got home after both days, I couldn’t remember what I’d done and neither could my husband. I honestly do not remember and I’m sorry about that. My mindset was also pretty over Infusio and ready to be done with it. Not that it’s a bad place, but it takes a mental and physical toll on you. It also takes a toll on your caretakers and loved ones who accompany you on this journey.

If it’s any consolation, i don’t remember them being heinous and they were short days.

Infusio - Eight Months Later

I could not do an update in the past 5 months regarding my stem cell treatment. Not because I'm living a great life and just haven't had the time in between skydiving and water skiing. It's because I didn't want to share so-so news. I suppose it's time.

My goal post has always been to feel better than I did BEFORE I treated Lyme. How I felt in May 2016 when I took a train to Santa Fe by myself. I was dealing with mild fatigue and panic attacks. To be honest, I should set the goal a little higher. Like, how I felt before I got Lyme. That would be in Summer of 2013. So far, I have never felt that way. I have had short intervals of energy where I feel almost normal. But then it goes away and I'm stuck on the couch for days. Couch or bed. I alternate. It's almost as if I have a good day and then pay for it. It's hard to gauge when I will have a good day or how long it will last. Good days are sometimes good hours.

I recently attended my uncle's funeral. I had the energy to plow through the wake, the services, the burial, I went thrift store shopping with my sister. I wore heels to all the funeral events. This is important because I haven't been able to wear heels in years. I kept going for about a week solid. And then I crashed. Bad. It's been a week and I still haven't quite gotten back to that high state. In the week after my uncle's funeral, I have been exhausted, achy, dizzy, angry, hopeless, etc. To be fair, I did just attend a funeral for someone I care about. It's not just that. I feel like I'm going backward sometimes.

Is Infusio working? Who the hell knows. I have had more good days and up-energy than I ever have. I treated Lyme for a year with an LLMD and never felt this good. But the payback for whatever good energy I get is a bitch. I do not have my life back; I am not going out, I cannot do a day's work. Sometimes I can wash the dishes and pick up a little around the house. It's not much. It's not enough. I'm going through a rough patch but it makes sense considering the crazy week I've had.

I'm being told that it's still early days and I should be patient. I'm trying. I have not lost faith in the Infusio process, but it's difficult to stay positive when the results seem to be negligible. I'm thinking next steps. What if Infusio doesn't work? Is some energy better than none?

I am NOT doing the Infusio home protocol. I assume that if I talk to the Infusio doctors, they will tell me this is why I feel bad. I don't believe in the home protocol. The basic tenets are: Clear histamines, inflammation control, and detox. I already do those and have been. I also feel it's a one size fits all solution and I didn't feel good on it. I don't feel as though I am having histamine issues. Then again, who knows? Maybe it is and would help by taking something. I don't know.

Being transparent here, I am not doing anything. Not the home protocol, not even my daily supplements. I take a B-vitamin when I remember to. The supplements game was making me depressed, so I stopped. I think I got tired of it. I try to eat well. No wheat, dairy, low meat, no sugar, no processed foods, but my diet isn't great. The stress of the funeral has caused me to eat like a teenage boy (who can't eat gluten.) That is, I'll have dairy free, gluten-free vegetarian pizza. I have french fries about once a week. I also gave up rice, which has seemed to help some. I'm still not able to cook. I get tired heating a bowl of soup. I will say this, a few weeks ago I had a few pieces of French bread and I didn't feel like I was going to die. That's something. It goes without saying, some supplemental therapies might be helpful. Whether it's Meyers Cocktail or Hyperbaric chamber. I haven't felt like doing anything.

I am also at a weird emotional point where I'm not sure how much I should push myself. Pushing means payback. Or does it? I'm not confident in my abilities or if pushing myself is good or bad. Will it strengthen me or make me weaker? The analogy of a rollercoaster that Infusio gave me is accurate. It's up and down all day long. The ups and downs are exhausting. I may also have some PTSD from herxing. I don't want to herx so I avoid anything that might cause it. Last year (before Infusio) I had a catatonic herx that scared the shit out of me. I'd like to avoid that.

I have mental and emotional breakdowns. Sometimes it's just malaise and ennui. I have brain fog that feels like pieces of a puzzle are missing. I feel that my emotions (in general) are stifled somehow. I feel very apathetic, but I also get riled up easily. So, it's hard to tell. Looking back over the last few years, things seem a trifle better. Perhaps it's about redefining my new normal. I don't know what that means. I keep thinking I want to get back to where I was before Lyme, but maybe that's just not possible. I want energy. I want to go to Disneyland and be tired like a normal person. Yet, my being awake and lying on the couch makes me feel like I spent the day at Disneyland.

If you can't tell, I'm frustrated. I, like many people who went through Infusio, am hoping for a miracle. This is not a magic bullet and the small amounts of improvement I've had are not enough for me to jump for joy. There's no jumping yet. I can't tell if what I'm feeling is normal or what. I'm confused about everything. I don't quite know what to expect and I keep thinking there's something more I should do other than waiting for the Infusio process to take full effect. I hate waiting. A year is a long time. And now Infusio is saying that if we don't feel better in fifteen months to contact them. That's discouraging.

Make no mistake, whichever method you employ to heal Lyme, no one seems to be able to get well in under a year. At least, not people who already have reached the chronic stage. It's just frustrating. I'm over it. I want out.

So that's why I haven't posted. I feel like I'm just complaining and I need to be patient. But I feel like stomping my feet. Except, I don't have the energy to do that.

I am more than happy to communicate and answer questions (if I can). I also post updates on InstaStories. Thanks for reading and stay well!

Infusio - ACT Day Two

Day Two at Infusio for the ACT was inexplicably the most difficult day.

We arrived at Infusio Beverly Hills at 11am. We paid for two IVs that Dr. Kim recommended (Glutathione and Meyer's). These were not included in the ACT program. Initially, they told us I was going to get all my IVs on the 3rd floor, but when we got there, they sent us to the Penthouse. We arrived at the penthouse and waited a bit until the nurse was ready for us. The day was IVs only and one shot as follows:

We started with a needle shot into my right shoulder. *I forget what was in this one. I'll ask and update. That hurt and left my shoulder aching for a full day with a temporary loss of range of motion. It must have gone into a muscle.


  • Meyer's Cocktail

  • Glutathione

  • Intracell (procaine/bicarb)

I stayed in the IV lounge most of the day, hooked up to IV bags. I didn't really talk to anyone. Most notably, they've added acoustic baffling to the ceiling to absorb sound which really cuts down on the noise in the lounge. Overall, the day was not horrible. I watched Netflix on my iPad and zoned out. After my IVs, I was exhausted. Like, couldn't keep my eyes open exhausted. We were done by 2pm. We called an Uber, sat in traffic for an hour, and went home. When I got home I crashed hard for an hour, but felt really tired and irritable the rest of the night. In the morning, I felt fine.

As usual, the staff was helpful and cheerful. There's really not much to report, especially since I've already been through bunches of IVs. I basically want to put all this on here for myself and others heading into the ACT protocol. As I said before, I had no idea what to expect. These are not full days and even though IVs aren't pleasant, it's not the worst thing in the world now. Funny what you learn to put up with.

If you have questions, post in the comments.

Infusio - ACT Day One

I'm back at Infusio for the second phase of my Lyme Healing adventures starting May 14th, 2018.

I find the ACT concept difficult to understand. Whether it's my limited science knowledge or the fact it's confusing is up for debate. Read about it here. I know that it's supposed to boost your immune system.

 First off, I received no information about what to expect, what my days would look like, what they will do (or how). Nothing. I got one phone call confirming my appointment time and two others asking if I could come in earlier. We arrived at the Beverly HIlls Clinic at 12:45pm and as we were walking up to the building; we ran into my husband's aunt and uncle! Random! They're two cuties and we haven't seen them in a long time. It was a nice surprise. We chatted with them for a few minutes and then went up to the 3rd floor. I did 8 minutes on the Global Diagnostic and then waited another 45 minutes before we saw Dr. Kim.

We sat with Dr. Kim for almost an hour. She answered questions, and we compared data from the Global Diagnostic. For those of you tuning in, the Global Diagnostic uses frequency to determine what your body is doing which tells the doctor what you need. It's kind of complicated and TBH I don't understand it. It seems to give out some detailed data so let's assume it works. It's European technology, so that obviously means it's good. Anyway, we talked with the doctor; she explained that I am seeing improvement on all fronts. I have not yet reached the neuro-healing phase, so that can hit any time. She said to expect an upswing in symptoms, pain, fatigue, and histamine reactions. So, everything I've ever had Lyme-wise I can have again, maybe worse. She explained that therefore it's important to do the home-protocol.

Pause for a second...I'm speaking in Infusio and Lyme jargon here, so if you need anything explained, let me know and I'll do my best to help. 

After my talk with Dr. Kim, she had me go into the Light Coffin (Novo Bed/Laser Bed) for 15 minutes. I had no idea I'd be doing ANY therapies today. After that, we went back to the 3rd floor where we checked out; they gave me my schedule for the next 3 days, gave me a copy of the updated home protocol, and sent me on my way.

The schedule for the next few days will be:

  • Tuesday: 2 hours of IV therapies

  • Wednesday: 4 hours, ACT

  • Thursday: 2 hours of IV therapies.

I'm a little tired from the Light Coffin, but otherwise, I feel good. It's sort of surreal to be back to Infusio, but as usual, everyone was nice and helpful. There are now signs all over the place asking for people to be quiet. This is great. I will not be in the penthouse at all this week. All of my therapies will be on the 3rd floor.

That about covers day one. Tomorrow starts at a nice relaxing 11am, so we don't have to get up super early and we'll miss the morning traffic. We'll hit it on the way home, though. As always, if you have questions I'll do my best to answer. Post questions in the comments.

Infusio - Three Month Update

At three months post stem cells at Infusio, I can best describe my experience as confusing,  frustrating, and slow.

During the first 100 days, Infusio wants you to lie low, take it easy, and begin the home protocol. Note: The home protocol comprises herbs, supplements, and home therapies. I'm at around 90 days post-Infusio and it's been a very confusing time. The home protocol has already changed once since I left Infusio and there have been several small updates - ones you would not know about unless you follow all the Facebook groups (links below).

I have not done a good job with the home protocol. Some people online have complained about increasing symptoms and histamine reactions so I've procrastinated. Some of them are hard to get a hold of. The purchase of Infusio's brand of supplements must be done via their website. It submits a form and you have to wait for someone to call you. I missed the call twice because they called my husband's number and not mine. It took about two weeks to get them - although they shipped quickly. These supplements are created by Infusio for Infusio patients. I don't know if they're better, I just bought them. Infusio also recommended other brands found online, but have started making their own. I figure, everyone's in the supplement business, but these appear to be cleaner versions for around the same prices. The jury's out if they help or not.

What to take and what not to take is a constant source of stress. Infusio doesn't want you taking any unnecessary pills, supplements, or detoxes. What's necessary? I have no idea. I take what they tell me to take. Can I take Vitamin C? How about charcoal? Alka Seltzer Gold? Everything I usually take is now a question mark. Can I take an Epsom bath? How about a lymph massage? Literally everything, I've had to ask Infusio or post on the boards.

As for how I'm feeling...there have been minor improvements, but it's had to tell if it's me being over it and pushing myself - or the actual stem cells. Let's vote stem cells. I admit I have been pushing myself a little more. I'm forcing myself to be out of bed more. And it's up and down. Some days I'm so tired I lay on the couch or in bed all day, others (like today) I have good energy and feel energetic until I run out of steam and collapse. I am not close to being back to normal. On Saturday, I cleaned the dead leaves out of our three medium ficus trees and it took me down hard for two days. I felt like I'd run a marathon.

Most days I spend about 50% of my day laying down. I split the other 50% between reading, listening to podcasts, writing, watching movies, napping, thinking about things, starring at the walls. Some days I'm laying down 75%, 100%, no percent. It changes from day to day. On good days, I'm up and about, but I feel like a zombie.

  1. I'm napping harder. Before stems, I couldn't sleep and would knock out for 5/10 minutes. Now I go down for a good hour almost every day. It's a hard "dead to the world" kind of sleep.

  2. I still have insomnia at bedtime.

  3. I've had less intense dizziness.

  4. My husband thinks my mood has improved. I still feel blue, but not super dark like I was before. I'd best describe it as "bummed out" all the time with short reprieves here and there.

  5. I still have constant pain in my joints, but muscle twitching is way down.

  6. Eye floaters and sparkles are still an issue.

  7. I haven't had a migraine in over a month.

  8. Head pressure comes and goes.

  9. Tinnitus is unchanged. Hearing does that thing where it drops out for a second and comes back ringing.

  10. My circulation is inconsistent. Some days it feels like it's cut off in my legs, others it's fine.

  11. My digestion has improved (consistency wise) but not in absorption. I have lower abdomen bloating that started at week 11 and hasn't let up. I've gained about 5 pounds.

  12. The texture of my face skin seems to have improved, but that may be because I no longer wash my face with water. I use micellar water. It's less dry, anyway.

  13. Last week I had such bad eye fatigue (for 4 days) I couldn't do anything at all. Not even watch TV.

  14. Little things are improving, but I'm still exhausted all the time. Too tired to operate like a normal human being.

Every day is a roll of the dice. I'm not bothering to write this stuff down or chart it. It's so erratic. appears things are moving in a positive direction. I will say, I am not taking my supplements with any regularity. I forget to. Maybe that's a good thing. It's still way early in the game, but because I'm seeing TINY improvements, it's allowing me to stay hopeful. I should note my symptoms were at their worst when I was herxing on Byron White herbs. I no longer take them (per Infusio instructions) and I now feel a little worse than I did before I started treating Lyme.

In middle May I'm going back to Infusio to do the ACT program. It's a 4-day treatment and I will once again blog the day-to-day stuff. Hopefully, I will feel well enough to do so. If you have questions, email me or post comments below.


Infusio - What to Expect

I went into Infusio with almost no knowledge of what they did or how they did it. It was hard to find an exact day-to-day list of therapies, moods, or what to expect. This is all based on my experience. Start here, if you haven't already read the old posts.

Note: Infusio is changing things all the time and tweaking how they operate. This may change. As of January 2018, this is how it was. 

  1. The most important thing (I think) you need to know is that Infusio is difficult. It's not a mellow day spa. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done.

  2. The main areas you'll be in are the Penthouse and 3rd floor. The penthouse is the most spa-like environment and the outdoor patio is your escape from the noise and constant movement.

  3. You will receive a printed schedule of your therapies for the 10 days. This is super helpful. Rather than carry it around all day, take a photo with your phone.

  4. They divide each day into two two, three hour blocks: IVs and other therapies. This alternates every day. Sometimes IVs are in the morning, sometimes in the afternoon. Lunch is one hour.

  5. Most days ended around 5pm.

  6. Therapies currently include: Novo Bed (10-20 mins), Thymus shot, massage (20 mins to 1 hour), NAD shots, Global Diagnostic (30-45 mins), Hyperbaric Chamber (45 mins), Squish Pants - SlimYonik (45 minutes). You have a 1/2 hour to an hour block for each therapy.

  7. You will have one short consultation with a nutritionist via Skype. This is not the end all be all of your nutritional journeys, but he offered some nice advice, to those just starting out eating better.

  8. The NAD shots (12 total, every other day) hurt like a mother. Mentally prepare yourself. Breathe and relax. I did not understand I'd be getting eight shots in the stomach and 4 in the back. Breathe and relax.

  9. You'll be getting anywhere from three to seven bags of IVs per day. This is hard. Your arms and veins get exhausted.

  10. You'll be doing therapies on both the 3rd and Penthouse floor. Lots of walking. Wear comfortable shoes. Got Uggs? Slippers? Wear 'em.

  11. California weather is cold to moderate in the Winter (40-80 degrees), gorgeous and comfortable (sometimes cool and rainy, 75-85 degrees) in the Spring, hot as hell in the Summer (80-110 degrees), and cold and dry in the Fall (50-75 degrees). Winter, Spring, and Fall are cool/cold. Bring a sweater. Compared to the rest of the country, this is mild. Skies are usually clear, but we do have smog that ranges from Moderate to Unhealthy.

  12. LA Traffic is whack and Beverly Hills is not freeway adjacent. Add 15-20 minutes to most destinations. Beverly Hills is close to West Hollywood, but Hollywood is a little bit of a drive through city streets.

  13. Ask for what you want and need. I'm a shy little thing in person. I don't like to bother people, but I found that the staff is happy to help and they want to make you feel comfortable. Don't act like you own the place, but if you need something: Ask.

  14. A neck pillow would have been super helpful. The lounge chairs aren't that comfortable - although I hear they're better than the ones before. You're sitting for long periods of time. Get up and stretch if you're able - or move to another part of the floor.

  15. Drink lots and lots of water. You're getting pumped with vitamins, getting a massage, and doing major detoxing. You need to stay hydrated.

  16.  I know it's fancy Beverly Hills, but dress comfortable. I was all trying to look nice and it would have been better if I showed up in lounge wear and Ugg boots.

  17. Reading is hard when you're hooked up to IVs. Skip the analog books and download audiobooks ahead of time.

  18. Bring sunglasses. The IV lounge is SUPER bright all day long.

  19. Bring an eye mask for the Novo Bed (Light Coffin). The lights are painfully bright and hurt my eyes.

  20. Noise canceling headphones or earplugs might be useful to those with noise sensitivity. The IV lounge can be loud and chatty at times.

  21. These are long, nine hour days. I was not prepared and kind of frustrated. It feels like you're in a medical Summer camp, running from one activity to the next.

  22. The entire experience is emotional! Me and just about everyone else had emotional breakdowns at one point. You're working hard and kicking ass. Most of us don't leave the house for 10 days in a row, 9 hours at a time. This shit is hard! Give yourself credit and go easy on yourself. Feel what you need to feel and move on. Don't suck it up, cry if you need to cry. There are places you can hide out if you need to.

  23. I don't recommend going out exploring for lunch. Judi's Deli is fine and right downstairs. I know many people have never been to Beverly Hills, but just make life easy for yourself. My lunch every day was the vegetable teriyaki without the sauce, brown rice, and a green juice from Pressed Juicery across the street. Same same. Easy.

  24. You can bring a companion, but they will be very bored. Have them bring what they need to entertain themselves so you don't have to worry about them. It's nice to have someone there with you. Hopefully, it's someone who understands this is difficult and you will be tired and emotional.

  25. The Penthouse has Wifi, but outlets aren't in convenient places.

  26. I don't think Infusio objects to your bringing your kids, but please don't (if you can help it) for the sake of the other patients.

  27. I know you're nervous, but try to let people rest. Talking all day is exhausting. I don't know how people do it. The best thing for your health and the sanity of the other patients is to be friendly, but don't talk their ears off.

  28. There is a pharmacy on the ground level in the same building if you need to buy anything. And a Rite-Aid on the corner.

  29. For those coming from out of town - I heard from other patients that staying in an Air-BNB was much more relaxing than the hotels Infusio recommends. I live local, so I went home every day. However, we also endured two hours of grueling traffic coming and going. If you live local, consider doing the hotel or Air-BNB to save yourself the grief. 

  30. Infusio isn't forthright with the information. I don't think they quite understand that Lyme patients have been taking care of their own selves for years. We've been our own doctors, our own research assistants, and often our own cheerleaders. We have questions and we want to know what the hell is in that IV bag. I had to ask about EVERYTHING. At first, I felt nervous and bothersome, but whatever. Just ask.

  31. All the staff and doctors are super nice. I loved everyone there.

  32. Understand that Infusio is in its infancy and they're figuring things out as they go. I believe the science is sound, but the implementation needs tweaking. They're darn close. It may be helpful to understand that they're not perfect and they are trying to help us all.

  33. 25k does not entitle you to 24/7 personal care by the Infusio staff and doctors. I know, this sounds harsh. 25k is a lotta lettuce. You are not their only patient and Dr. Kim is the only doctor on staff. 6 new patients per week makes 24 per month. Do the math. It's not ideal and you are spending a lot of money to do this, but try to have compassion for those who have compassion for us. Like I said, they are new to this and they are figuring it out. No one else is working this hard to tackle lyme on a physical and emotional level. Be patient with them. I believe they know what they are doing, but we're all basically the early adopters, the alpha testers. I say this with the utmost sincerity, I believe Infusio cares about their patients, but are overworked.

  34. You do not have to talk to anyone if you don't want to. Build your little island and rest if you can. Don't feel pressured to chat.

  35. Set your expectations now. This is NOT an instant results treatment. You may get a small boost during or right after Infusio, but you will be up and down physically and emotionally during and after. Don't expect to feel bad, but understand this is a long process. They say up to a year for full results.

  36. If you haven't already, stop eating wheat, gluten, sugar, and dairy. Just don't eat that crap. It creates inflammation.

  37. The stem cell procedure will take place on the Wednesday or Thursday of your final week. This is a half day.

  38. They want you to wear loose-fitting black clothes for the procedure day. I wore a lightweight black pullover and sweats.

  39. Phil Battiade is not around. He may pop in now and again, but he's not there to chat or answer questions. When I was there, he was in and out, working, running around. Dr. Kim is also not around all the time, but she will sit down with you and answer questions. If you have questions, right them down and take them with you.

This is a long list, but I hope you find it helpful. If I have more to add, I will do so as time goes on. If you have questions, ask. Post questions in the comments.

Infusio - Seven Week Update

I'm just about two months out. Here's what's been going on...

The first month was difficult. I had the same amount of pain and felt frustrated. A few weeks ago, I got a nasty head cold that had me in bed for a few days. I was blind-sided with volcanic emotions during this time, lots of crying, feeling angry. It was your average head cold and ended in about 5 days and was only bad for two.

My energy is up. If I had to assign a percentage, I'd say it's about 5% up on good days. I still get winded going upstairs, I can't do very much without getting tired. I still have all the same symptoms as before Infusio, plus some new ones.

  1. Body temperature fluctuations (cold and hot extremities)

  2. Migraines/headaches

  3. Visual disturbances (blurry, floaters, dryness, fatigue, light sensitivity)

  4. Digestion issues (slow, constipation, loose, abdominal pain, cramping, noise, gas)

  5. Muscle twitching

  6. Hands shaking

  7. Joint and muscle pain

  8. Insomnia (this is new). Every day since Infusio. I feel creepy-crawly before bed and have a hard time falling asleep.

  9. Vertigo - Constant sense of feeling off balance with intermittent loss of balance. I've never fallen over, though.

  10. Eczema. From 2006 to 2009 (pre-lyme) it covered me head to toe. I got rid of it, but it's coming back, between the webbings of my fingers. Dry, red, itchy, pustules. Eczema and rashes have never been a symptom of my Lyme. I got Lyme in 2013.

  11. Skin dryness

  12. Breakouts (face, neck, shoulders, back)

  13. Sinus pressure

  14. Throat feeling tight

  15. Pain in sternum

  16. Tinnitus

  17. Mild air hunger

  18. Random red rashes

  19. My gums are FUBAR

  20. Sleeping during the day (this is new)

  21. Sore throats

  22. Post-nasal drip

  23. Fingertips pruning

  24. Hearing sensitivity

  25. My eyesight seems worse



My anxiety at the moment is less. I went from having "Call 911" panic attacks to feeling only slightly anxious. My energy is better. Before, I couldn't force myself to do anything. Now I can. I can do things for about 5-10 minutes before I break a sweat and have to stop. I've been reading, playing piano, painting, and writing. This is all great. I couldn't even read before; my eyes would get blurry and I couldn't hold a book up. Like I said, before Infusio, I couldn't even force myself to do 5 minutes of anything. Although I still need to lie down quite a lot, I don't have to lie down ALL day.

Now, it's still early days and Infusio has warned me that this is a roller coaster. I take the good with the bad. Some days I can't even play piano or read. Some days I'm in bed all day. Infusio has been sending out videos to helps us get through the first three months. They contain helpful tips on what to do and what to expect. The most recent one said I can now engage in light exercise. I will do light yoga at home.

Going out is still a challenge. I leave the house twice a week. Fridays I have my therapy sessions, Sundays we have brunch with my sister. Those both wear me out. When I come home, I have to take a nap.

So yes, things are moving in a positive direction. Note, this improvement in energy has arrived only in the last few weeks. Before that, I was pretty beat up and exhausted. The first two weeks after Infusio were grueling energy-wise.

I hope this covers it. If you have questions, please ask. I'll help as best I can.

Note: Everyone wants to know if Infusio is worth it. It's hard for me to gauge at the moment. I'm leaning yes, but only time will tell. I'll update again soon. I want to do a post that has tips for those going to Infusio. Stay tuned.


Infusio - Days Nine & Ten

Note: I have tons of pics from days nine & ten, but just haven't had the energy to sort them and get them web-ready. I'll add them at a later date. Until then, use your mind pictures. As always, if you have questions, comment below. I'm writing this a little over two weeks after my time at Infusio (and posting a month later). On day ten, I had the most amazing burst of energy I've had in years! I felt normal, better than normal. I was in a GREAT mood and I could have done anything! But then I crashed. Hard.

Thursday (day nine) was my day for stem cells. They had us get there early at 6am. We walked into the 1st floor lab and surgery area. Right when you walk in, the stem cell bakery is to the left behind glass so you can see what they're doing. It's fascinating. Dr. Kim met us and explained how it would all go down. While they did the final prep in the surgery room, we sat in a private room just across the hall - a nice room with a lounge chair, water, fruit, and a frosted window. When we were ready, Dr. Kim called us into the surgery room and explained the procedure. She had one handsome male assistant whose name I can't remember.

She asked if I wanted a drug that helped with the disconnect of the procedure; it makes it so you don't associate bad feelings with the surgery. Yeah, gimme that. She injected the drug into my hip. I'll have to ask my husband what it is, but it makes you feel like everything is OK. No side-effects.

I laid down on my stomach and she numbed my lower back. She asked me what kind of music I wanted to listen to. I said 80s. She put 80s music on with her phone. Once my back was numb, she made two small incisions on either side of my spine. She inserted something inside my back to numb the inside of my body - under the skin. Gross. And then she used a long sucker tube thingy and dug right in. She gets all up in there! She's scraping and sucking out the fat in my lower back and at first I couldn't feel it, but the further in she went I could. It felt like a hot pinch. She started at my spine and went as far as the inside of my hips. She put in more numbing stuff and it felt better. I had my fat scraped out while listening to Guns and Roses' Welcome to the Jungle. Not kidding. Kind of appropriate, actually. You can feel what she's doing, but it doesn't hurt. It took only fifteen minutes and my husband they allowed my husband be in the room with us - taking photos and making commentary. She then cleaned me up and placed a blue pad on my back. She said the wounds would bleed a little and the inner numbing stuff would leak out. Ew. We went into the little waiting room and waited while they made up my stem cells.

I had no real concept of time It all felt like it took an hour, but we were down there about 3 hours. Handsome Assistant attached me to an IV and several small bags of saline. The stems were ready in about 90 minutes. Dr. Kim's assistant makes them up in the bakery lab room. He then brings them in, asked me if I wanted to take a photo with them - I guess people want to do that. I did. And then he injected them into a saline bag and they coursed through my veins. Easy. Dr. Kim was on hand to answer questions. She gave us a container of Arnica Montana - homeopathic pellets that helped so much. I took them about three times a day for a few days after. They help for swelling and pain.

I rested and then went upstairs to get a few more IVs. A Meyer's Cocktail and I forget the other one. Sorry, it was kind of a whirlwind day. After that, we went home around noon.

Stem cell day was the easiest day of the entire two weeks I was at Infusio. Essentially, you're in and out. When I got home, I felt tired, but good. I slept


On Friday, it was back to Infusio for one last day or treatments and IVs. It was just like any of the other days, except I had massive amounts of energy. I was in a super amazing mood and I could have run errands and cleaned the house. I felt a little like I was on drugs. Happy drugs. My back was sore from the procedure, but it wasn't bad. We all did our therapies and then received a final talk about what to expect and how Infusio is there to help us, how to get answers, etc. They gave us all folders with our nutritional consultation information and a list of after-Infusio at-home procedures. This list contains things like teas, castor oils packs, and recommended supplements. We all said goodbye, took a photo together and went our separate ways.

I will write up another post that goes into how I feel after Infusio. Don't get excited, it's not awesome, but I want to document and let people know what to expect. This is about all I can do right now. Thanks for reading. Ask questions in the comments.

Infusio - Day Eight

Day 8 was the day Infusio broke me.

  • 10 Pass Ozone Treatment

  • IVs: Meyer's Cocktail, Glutathione

I woke up with a brewing migraine. Literally, right out of bed. I tried to muscle through it, showered, got ready, took a double dose of ibuprofen. We got into the Uber and I felt car sick the whole way there. When we got to Infusio, I still felt ill, but powered through the IVs. By lunch time I lost my shit. I went out on the patio to rest and the migraine was at full force. I felt like I would throw up. I bawled. Just ugly crying right there on the patio. I am not a public crier. I'm the kind of person that sneaks away to cry, but I just couldn't stop it. It was out of control.

I know I have to understand that I've been busting ass for days, more than I've done in two years. Like most of you, I've been in a cocoon - my dark apartment with only the TV light for months and months. I can hardly leave my house and my anxiety has been crazy since I started this journey. So being thrown into a brightly lit, noisy environment, for two weeks and nine-hour's overwhelming. I'm like one of those animal women, raised by wolves, brought into society. What was that movie with Jodie Foster? Nell? I'm Nell. I mean, I talk to my cats more than real people.

So we went home. I was at my breaking point. I talked to the girls downstairs, and they told me it was fine. The rest of my treatments would have been Squish Pants, Global Diagnostic, Novo Bed and thymus injection. They said I could skip them.

Sigh. I was so happy to be home; I cried again. I slept hard for an hour, woke up, had lunch with my hubby, watched two episodes of Grace and Frankie, and felt more sane. I still have a headache, but it's not fire and brimstone. Tomorrow is my stem procedure. I'm whacked out. I'm taking it easy, gonna sleep and wake up and get 'er done.

More tomorrow. Thanks everyone for reading. Please ask questions in the comments.

Infusio - Day Seven

So much happened today, let me see if I can get it all down...

  • Hyperbaric

  • SlimYonik

  • NovoBed

  • Nutritional consultation

  • Lunch

  • 7 IVs - I did not get the names of them all, but one of them was atesuante

  • Thymus

The day was bedlam. Two of the staffers called in sick: The assistant nurse and the hostess. This meant that the main nurse had to handle all the IVs by himself. 12 people and each of us had at least three IVs total. I had seven. It was a lot. In the afternoon, they called in a temp nurse to help out, but she wasn't familiar with the protocols and although she did her best, it was still kind of crazy. She was sweet, but not the best IV putter-inner. One girl from the 3rd floor office came up and played hostess and she was great. She was on top of everything as far as I could tell and she's very nice. I must applaud the staff for handling it today. It was a nightmare. The IVs require someone to watch them, change them, flush the lines, solve problems that arise. It's a big job for two people, let alone one nurse and a temp.

Good arm veins no longer an option

Good arm veins no longer an option

The schedule was out of whack all day and it was stressful for everyone. The staff handled it great, but you could tell the patients were getting frustrated. Everyone did their best to maintain their composure, but some of the therapies are time sensitive. By the afternoon, things seemed to settle down. Everyone was hooked up to the IVs and the IV lounge was jammed with 1st weekers and 2nd weekers (my group) plus their companions. It got noisy in the afternoon, but I didn't mind as much today. I was in a good mood all day. I even talked to people. Best I could, I was still exhausted.

I had my consult with their Mexico based nutritionist who does calls via Skype. He does custom suggestions for everyone. For me, he wants me to go back to a mostly vegan diet. I had been a vegetarian for 25 years, but after several doctors told me to eat meat or perish, I went back to limited meat (mostly chicken). It's only been about a year and it was a hard transition. I admit meat tastes good, but I have a lot of guilt when I eat it. He says the stress of eating meat is worse than eating meat. LOL. In the 25 years I was a vegetarian, I was never anemic. It wasn't until I got Lyme that my health declined rapidly. I'm fine going back to vegetarian. I feel like I have permission now.

Around 4pm, a group of young Hollywood types walked around and appeared to be setting up for filming. No one had said anything to us so we watched and waited as they discussed shots and where so and so would sit. They came up to where I was and talked about moving us and I said, "Excuse me, I don't know if you realize this, but we're all sick people. You can't just move us." It miffed me, for sure. The head of marketing was there and while she apologized, she appeared insincere. She said, "It's not everyday Paramount wants to shoot in your offices." And I'm thinking...actually, this is Los Angeles. It happens every day. I was too tired to duke it out. She continued to apologize, and I went outside to get air. I was pretty upset and so was everyone else. By this time, my IVs were starting to hurt, and I was ready to go home. I found somewhere else to sit, but was annoyed they had barged in on us. A little while later, the rest of the patients in my group came to where I was and told me someone had asked them to move because they were talking too much. Wow. One wife of a patient went downstairs to complain. I'm glad she did. We found out it was the guy from Catfish shooting some kind of commercial or something for the Infusio hangover treatments. That got everyone riled up because of all the things to move us out for! It also upset us that no one told us anything about it.

The dude from Catfish making a video while I’m trying to heal.

The dude from Catfish making a video while I’m trying to heal.

The heads of Infusio came up and apologized sincerely.  They explained that they weren't aware the film crew wanted to use the IV lounge and they shouldn't have asked to move; that this was our space. They were great about it and offered to buy us dinner as a bonus. I was happy with the apology. Believe me, I've lived in LA a long time, this kind of thing actually does happen all the time and film crews can be pushy.


After that, everyone went home. We all got our appointment times for our stem cell procedures. Mine is first thing Thursday morning. My energy is a little better than usual, but I'm sore. My IV sites are sore and I have a red bump on my booty where yesterday's thymus shot went in. I feel like I've been hit by a truck, despite a slight increase in energy. My arms, stomach, back, and ass cheeks are sore. My left hand is now sore - we're running out of places to stick needles. I'm weak and running out of steam, but it's almost over. Tomorrow is day 8! I'm more than halfway done!

Post questions in the comments!

Infusio - Day Six

Today started out bad. I spilled coffee all over myself as we were getting into the Uber.

  • Global Diagnostic

  • Massage (20 mins, trigger points)

  • Novo Bed

  • Thymus Injection

  • NAD Injections

  • 7 IVs (Calcium EDTA w/ DSMO, DCA, Intracell, Folic Acid + Bs, Glutathione, Liver detox,  Phospholipids)

I did this post very quickly. I was too tired to do a full info post last night and will update more as time permits. This is the gist of the day. 

Today was a long, hard day. I did the Global Diagnostic and then had a massage for 20 minutes. My body is so sore, it wasn't pleasant, but the massage therapist is wonderful and he did a great job. After, I did the NovoBed (Light Coffin) - except; I was feeling anxious. I got in, lay there a minute and got a static shock from the metal rim on the bed. That was enough for me. I got out, found my husband, did my thymus shot and then had the NADs - 8 shots in the stomach, 4 in the back. They hurt, but not as horrific as the first time.

We had two hours of downtime. I went outside and read, laid down, relaxed. I'm so glad I did. After lunch, we started the IV gauntlet. Right off the bat, the IV hurt. My arms are bruised and tired and my muscles feel weak. Around the hour mark, I noticed the first bag wasn't moving, so I asked for help. Some of the other patients were getting 10-pass ozone, so the nurses were very busy. They fiddled with the IV bags and all its little nozzles and things. It moved again, but they had to flush the line (in my vein) by clearing out the fluid and it BURNED. Later, I noticed the IV wasn't moving again, so I called again. It was another 20 minutes. This time, there was blood in the line and I was already feeling anxiety and trying to keep myself calm. The thing about anxiety is, it's never life or death. The weirdest things set it off. I tried to breathe and remain calm, but when the nurses came back, they flushed the line again and it BURNED. It was then I broke down crying. The nurse was sweet and helped me out. We put a warm compress on my arm and that helped a lot. The rest of the IVs went smoothly, but I was worn out and feeling spaced out. I was one of the last ones to leave.

When we got downstairs to call the Uber, my body started vibrating. My whole body was bobbing in every direction in a kind of slow rhythmic way. It felt gross. I had to sit down. The Uber arrived, and I tried to get up, but it felt like my legs were made of Jello. We thought it was best we go back up and get checked out. We got up to the 3rd floor, most everyone was gone, but the assistant nurse was there and she helped me. She's sweet. They took my vitals, and she texted back and forth with Dr. Kim. They said it resulted from the NAD shots I'd had in the early afternoon, but it was odd they were happening so far after the shots. I was still vibrating when we got into the Uber, but by the time we got home, it had subsided. I ate dinner and crashed out hard.

A new group of 1st Weekers have arrived and they all seem very nice. One girl has a support animal, and it's nice to have a sweet dog loving on everyone. It was quiet today, but in the afternoon it got a little loud.

I don't know what happened today. I was tired and moody and my emotions were out of my control. I can't remember who, but I think someone told me the NADs cause mood fluctuations. That would explain it, I'm feeling the pain. I thought the first week was hard. I sort of of expected it would get easier, but it is like a marathon. Did you ever see that movie Run Fatboy Run? I feel like Simon Pegg at the end of that one, but I will keep going because I have to, because I want to be well.


If anyone from Infusio ever reads this, you have to know: The staff is what makes 50-billion shots and long days bearable. They are all kind, supportive, and talented and I am so grateful to have their help.

Infusio - Week One Thoughts

Week One at Infusio was not what I expected.

I've spent a good amount of time complaining about the Slumber Party that has disrupted my serenity at Infusio and has complicated my mood. Last night my husband said, it felt like high school - the pretty blonde girls laughing, joking, being in their own world and not including us. If you're just joining, there was a group of about six women who spent their second week at Infusio talking and being disruptive as though they were at a cocktail party. All week. Every day. Monday to Friday. Non-Stop. They were loud. During this time, it was hard to read, sleep, or relax. What bothered me most about this wasn't so much that I felt like I was being left out. It was the blatant disregard for the other patients. I'm not the only one bothered by it, I'm just the only one writing about it.

It's true, it brought up old feelings about high school. You can guess I wasn't captain of the cheerleading squad. I was an outsider. In high school, I was a cross between Ally Sheedy in the Breakfast Club and Winona Ryder in Beetlejuice. (My high school experience is a long, tragic story I needn't go into here.) So yes, these women sort of made me feel a little like I was in high school or like they felt like they were in high school. They were in their own world and while I am so happy they felt well enough to party, I'm not happy that they subjected me to their raucous behavior all week.

I expected a calming spa environment; I got a disruptive, nerve wracking edition of Mom's Night Out. It's over now. They've gone home and I have another week to go. What you don't know about me is that I am sensitive. I might be too sensitive. Anxiety has been a major Lyme issue for me. I have a hard time tuning things out. I can't read unless it's absolutely quiet. I've spent the better part of the year working on my anxiety and working on my stress. Both of which have not helped my "Lyme Journey." But let's not talk about that. Let's talk about my experience so far.


The facility is clean, well maintained and modern. The science behind Infusio is sound. I spoke with my LLMD before Infusio and while she doesn't like the expense, she thinks it will help. She called it a "Detox Boot Camp". I've already spent more than $25,000 on various Lyme treatments over two years.  The staff is cheerful, talented, and mostly organized. The offices are beautifully decorated. Dr. Kim is amazing. She's smart, caring, and does a fantastic job. I love her. The nurses do their jobs efficiently and I truly think they care about the patients and the work they do. The outdoor patio on the top floor is awesome.


Space - Noise - Communication

Infusio is expensive, but you get what you pay for. They stack treatments on top of one another and your daily schedule feels fast paced. The IV Lounge is designed to be a soothing, relaxing environment, but it's not. It's become a jovial, fun filled, cafeteria-like environment. At times, the nurse, his assistant, and the host all seemed a tad overwhelmed. There have been several Infusio people walking around talking to patients. No one talked to me, but I also probably didn't appear welcoming. I've felt achy and headachy almost all week. Business people, who look like investors, have frequently come in to tour the facilities; I sort of felt like I was on display. Communications are friendly, but information is sparse. If you don't ask, you won't know what they're injecting you with. They're not secretive, they just don't offer that information unless you ask.

Infusio does not run any kind of blood work so if you have a health concern, you'd better speak up. It is up to you to keep track and ask about treatments and therapies. You are expected to trust the protocol. There is little accommodation for companions. You're allowed to bring a partner, but they have nowhere to go. You often want them with you in the therapy rooms, but there is nowhere for them to sit. My husband says he wants tables so you can bring your lunch back and eat. Space is an issue. The penthouse is cramped and several services are spread out between the 3rd floor and penthouse - which means a lot of going back and forth - more walking than I've done in years.

My husband says Infusio are victims of their own success. There are too many people there. It's 6 first-week patients, 6 second-week patients, plus their companions. What is that, 24 people? Almost everyone has a companion with them. There isn't enough space for everyone. The 3rd floor office is shared with a cosmetic surgeon which means even more people coming and going.

As a final note, I can't remember everyone's names. They tell you on the first day, but it would be helpful if staff wore name tags. It also took me about 4 days to learn the names of my fellow Lymies. I still don't know the names of their companions.

Is It Worth It?

That's the big question everyone has. I believe in Infusio and that Phillip Battiade is a genius who is working on hacking the body and healing Lyme. I believe that everyone at Infusio is sincere and wants to help people. Patients who have gone to Infusio have good things to report. People are getting their lives back. At the moment, I can't tell you if it's worth it. I don't feel much better after the first week and I might not know if it works for a long time. To be honest, if you feel better during the first two weeks it's because you're getting pumped with IVs, vitamins, aminos, ozone, and detoxing. Those are all great things, but they're short-term fixes. The stem cells will repair the damage Lyme has caused, and that will take time. There does seem to be a great deal of faith involved here. I am, by nature, a skeptical and cautious person. I want to get better and if most people leaving Infusio feel better, so will I.

Final Notes for the Week

At the end of my journey, I will compose a list of helpful tips to aid those coming to Infusio Beverly Hills. I wish the facility was a soothing environment, but I will have to renegotiate my own feelings and come up with my own solutions to get through it. I expect now that the Slumber Party is gone, things will be a little quieter. I hope so. On Saturday morning, I noticed a slight increase in energy and cognition. I felt compelled to organize my make-up counter in my bathroom and did about 10 minutes of light work - which is a lot more than I've done in a year or more. That's something. I didn't finish organizing though. Maybe I will later. My hands are still shaky and my digestion hasn't changed at all. While energy has increased some, I'm still tired.

Next week I will do my stem cell procedure on either Wednesday or Thursday. I am posting random updates throughout the day on Instastories (@kristensimental) if you'd like to follow along in real time. I'm half way through the Infusio part of the story, but the rest is still yet to be written. I will continue to post daily updates during next week.

As usual, if you have questions, ask. Put them in the comments and I will do my best to answer.

Infusio - Day Five

Today was a gauntlet. My patience was almost zero and I was very emotional.

My mom sent me loving texts every morning.

My mom sent me loving texts every morning.

  • Hyperbaric Chamber

  • Thymus shot

  • Novo Bed

  • Global Diagnostic

  • Lunch (2 hour break)

  • 5 IVs (Immunity protocol, 3 others, one for liver detox)

The day started off bad. I forgot to eat breakfast and was feeling shaky and ill. I told the girl on the 3rd floor and she said to eat. It made me a little late for the hyperbaric chamber, but it worked out.

I don't love the hyperbaric chamber, but it turned out to be the most relaxing part of the day. I read my favorite literary journal (Sheriff Nottingham) I had my thymus shot, got into the Light Coffin for 10 minutes, did the Global Diagnostic and then had lunch. We ended up having 2 hours of downtime. It was overcast and cold today, so we didn't spend too much time outside. The slumber party was there today. It's their last day at Infusio and I am so grateful. I can't even tell you. The non-stop talking, laughing, jubilant screams (the way girls do). Non-stop. I marveled at how they could talk all day. I am so not like that. During my 2 hour break, I went outside to take a nap and about halfway in, they all came out for a final day photo with one of the Infusio staffers, the nurses, and the host. I couldn't help but feel like I was invisible. I was sleeping, and they made tons of noise, laughing, joking. I did not get a nap today, which made me cranky.

Look, I'm ridiculously happy these people feel well enough to have loud conversations and talk all day. I don't. I've had a hard week, I don't feel well, I'm exhausted, and I'm doing my best to get through it. My symptoms this week have been headaches, tremors, anxiety, and fatigue. I have a hard time when people show a blatant disregard for others. It boggles my mind. All week, these women have acted like they're getting 2 for 1 margaritas at Dave and Busters. I managed to contain my side eye for most of the week, but today I couldn't keep it in and threw some serious shade. I said nothing, but it was obvious I was unhappy. The nurses and the host helped me out and put me in a side room, but even that was too loud. After a while, they put me in the back room and I had some quiet. I'm dealing with some serious anxiety right now and it hurts to have people being crazy in a place of healing. I don't get it. I don't quite know how to address the issue. It's not just me. Two other people felt the need to escape the cacophony and find solace in other parts of the penthouse. While I don't want to be a complainer, I also have to consider that I too paid a crap ton of money for this experience and I deserve to be in a place of comfort for everyone. I'm venting. Sorry.

I was moody today. Really moody. Up and down. I almost cried a few times. I think it's just the stress of the long week. Infusio is a gauntlet, but I've said this before: It will be worth it. I know it. One of my major battles through this Lyme journey has been how to handle my stress. I have to deal with it. I will say this, doing this blog helps. The staff at Infusio also helps. They're great.

That said, the afternoon IVs are hard on everyone. You can see it on their faces. Today they told me what every IV was and what it did, but I was so poo brained I couldn't keep it straight. Not just me, but everyone was glad to be out for the weekend to have a few days off. I got out around 5pm and was the last one done. When we left, we were so eager to leave; we forgot to check out. I probably was not a peach to deal with today. I'm sure everyone could tell I was in a bad mood. I hope I didn't annoy anyone with my mad faces or foul mood. I tried, but I felt like I was at my limit today. My limit is so much shorter thanks to Lyme. I tried not to take it out on the nurses or host. They are all wonderful, helpful, amazing people. Next week should be a lot better. The final stretch. I have to remind myself: I chose this, I'm paying for this, I want this, and it will work!

While I waited on the curb for our Uber home, I saw a hummingbird. Right there in the middle of a busy Beverly Hills street. I love hummingbirds; they feel like my spirit animals - because before Lyme I was a high energy, get-er-done kind of go-getter. I feel like they're always around me all the time. I see them in the most unlikely places and have had the honor of hosting two hummingbird nests on two of my home porches over the years.

And then the best thing happened. Remember when I said movie stars don't do it for me anymore? I was just kidding. I saw George Hamilton walking down the street! He walked right in front of me. Oh man. He's 78, and he looks great! Still tanned, still smooth. He looked good. If you don't know who that is, do yourself a favor and watch any of his movies from the '70s. My favorite is Love at First Bite. He was a hunk and a half. A real heartthrob in his day. Our Uber drive home was great. The driver was courteous and drove like a champ. We got home in under an hour in Friday evening traffic. Thank you!

When I got home, I had a shot burst of CRAZY energy. It lasted about 5 minutes, but I felt like I was on speed. I've never done speed, but I imagine that's what it's like. It's gone now and I will rest up. I'll do a week one sum up and post it this weekend. Thanks for being with me this week. Doing these posts has helped me stay calm and not kill crazy slumber party ladies. Because I was edgy all day, I didn't take any photos. There's not much to see that isn't already on the Infusio website, but if you want to see anything in particular, let me know - I'll see what I can do.

Ask questions in the comments. Have a great weekend everyone!

Infusio - Day Four

Today was the day of shots! I'm officially a human pin cushion. Now I know how voodoo dolls feel :(

  • SlimYonik

  • NovoBed (6 mins)

  • Global Diagnostic

  • Thymus shot

  • NAD shots (12 total)

  • Lunch

  • 5 IVs: DCA, ??, artesunate, glutathione, ozone

  • Bursitis shoulder shots (lidocaine, procaine, ozone - 3 or 5?)

When I got in at 9am, they told me Dr. Kim had changed my schedule because of my data on the Global Diagnostic. This is normal. They personalize treatment, but I was not specifically told what the data was or why it altered. I started with the SlimYonik (Squish Pants) and then did 6 minutes in the Light Coffin. Each time I do the NovoBed, I alternate 6, 10, and 20 minutes in on various days. Everyone has their own personalized schedule. I then went back downstairs to do the Global Diagnostic which takes about 1/2 an hour. 

After that, I had my daily thymus shot. And then! I did the NAD shots. If you recall, they tried to do these on Monday, but they hurt so bad I was in tears and they had to stop. Today, wasn't that bad. It hurt, but I meditated through it. I could kind of zone out and take the pain. It's what I've done when I've gotten piercings and tattoos. I just go into a kind of trance. 12 shots total. 8 in my stomach, 4 in my back.

My husband and I had an hour to kill, and we asked if we could start the IVs early, but we ended up waiting until everyone else got going. The staff has their own schedule to keep. I was feeling moody and still had a headache so I laid down on the IV chair. Pro tip: The IV chair on the far right gets all the sun in the afternoon. Not the best chair.

After lunch, I had IVs for the rest of the afternoon. DCA, one I can't remember, artesunate, glutathione, and ozone.

  • DCA - Dioxychlor - Antiviral, antibacterial and antifungal

  • I don't remember the next one. It might have been EDTA which is a heavy metal detoxer.

  • Artesunate is an anti-malarial and is used for "severe" malaria. I assume this is for the Babesia, a similar bacteria to malaria.

  • Glutathione is an antioxidant.

  • Ozone kills Lyme pathogens.

As usual, I had to ask about everything and I was so tired and headachy I couldn't remember one of the IVs. You are bombarded with information, it's hard to remember it all, especially when you have brain fog. However, today I felt more clear headed. It's hard to explain. I felt like I was thinking a little clearer, but it didn't last. It wasn't like the brain fog went away, but I felt slightly more awake for a while. This is a rollercoaster. Things change from minute to minute, day to day. My results are not typical and everyone has different results.

Dr. Kim came by around 3pm and talked the group through the stem cell procedure that will take place next week on Wednesday or Thursday. Again, it's a lot of information, but the procedure will take 2 hours. I will post all that info when the time comes. She also took the time to sit down with each of us and address our questions. She wanted to look at my bad shoulder and suggested I do shots of ozone and procaine to get the inflammation down. I did. It was an extra $200 charge, but so far, it feels a ton better - a little sore from the injection sites. Since I had a headache, Dr. Kim recommended I use an essential oil roll-on called "Headache Magic." It worked. You can find it online and it has: Lavender Fine, Peppermint, Ylang-Ylang 3, Wintergreen, Melissa.

Right now, I'm so tired I need to rest. This week has taken a lot out of me. Today was another gauntlet. I was dragging ass all day and felt unusually emotional. I had a chat with the mother of one of the other patients and she told me how hard it's been on him. Lyme is a tough business. It's heartbreaking, but I feel good knowing both this man and I are getting the help we need.

I will continue to post information as I have it. I hope you understand, at the moment, I'm so tired and weak I need to sleep. I will have more time over the weekend to get into some specifics and talk about the upcoming procedure. I may also update this post later. The Uber ride home was horrific. The driver made me feel car sick, and it took an hour and a half. I also didn't take a lot of photos today. I had a good quality hamburger for dinner and basically inhaled it. I was famished! After, I felt OK - no bloating or sick feeling. I'll talk more about the recommended diet this weekend. Hint: It's not hamburgers.

Please post questions in the comments. Thanks!

Infusio - Day Three

I'm not a cheerleader. In fact, I have to work really hard to be positive. Life has kicked me in the teeth enough times, I've learned to be cautious and observant.

  • Global Diagnostic

  • Massage

  • NovoBed

  • Thymus Injection

  • Re-Do Global Diagnostic

  • Lunch

  • 10 Pass Ozone (kills Lyme pathogens)

  • IVs - Meyer's Cocktail, Glutathione

There is so much going on that it's difficult to explain everything. The first few days we were just thrown into things. I'm getting the hang of it and can explain a little more. I'll do my best. Please ask questions if you have them. 

I expected that Infusio would be a serene oasis and I would have no complaints. In many regards, it is and I don't. The location is beyond gorgeous. If you're not from Los Angeles, Beverly Hills is something to see. I've lived in LA a long time. I was born here, moved to Ventura County, and came back when I was 19. Fancy cars, movie stars, and palm trees do little for me. Even so, the inside of Infusio is done well. The decor, the furniture, everything. It's all top-notch. All the employees are easy on the eyes. I'm pretty sure there's some kind of beauty pre-requisite to work there. But they're not just pretty faces. Everyone is helpful, sweet, and fantastic at their jobs. It's a win/win. The services they offer are high end and are the latest technology.



My biggest complaint is the volume levels. For the last 3 days, people (staff and patients) have been talking non-stop. I understand the patient's point of view. You're in an unfamiliar place and there's nothing to do for long hours on end. The IV makes it difficult to read when you can't move one arm. It's so much easier to talk to your neighbor. However, I don't know about anyone else, but I have noise sensitivity and anxiety. Being around a bunch of new people who are laughing like they're at a cocktail party is disruptive. The good news is, my husband and I just hang out on the penthouse patio all day - and it's lovely out there. It's mostly quiet - although you can often hear the people inside - and the weather has been perfect. There are comfy chairs and lounges to sit on and it shaded for most of the day. I wish that the inside was more of a quiet zone though. I don't consider loud talking conducive to healing. Maybe that's just me. Most everyone is talking and I feel like the odd man out. Actually, there's one other guy who often strays from the crowd. I get the sense he wants to be alone. I'm tired of talking about lyme. She said, as she writes her blog about it. Truth is, I want to relax and get better. I want to put lyme behind me. I'm sharing all this on my blog for posterity and to help others looking into Infusio. Spoiler alert: I think it will be worth it.

Today was another go-go-go day. I started with the Global Diagnostic which is a very complicated frequency machine that reads your body energy, puts out a reading and then does a "treatment". Once again, I'm not sure how it works, and it doesn't feel like anything is happening. I'm trying to trust the process.

After that, I had an hour long massage which was amazing! The massage therapist has magic hands. He worked on my bad shoulder (bursitis and/or tendonitis) and has improved my mobility. Like a lot of you, I have not had a massage in years. I read somewhere they detox you too much and make us feel worse after, so I've stayed away. I don't feel worse. I feel relaxed. I might feel different tomorrow.

I did 20 minutes on the NovoBed (AKA Light Coffin). I have mixed feelings about the Light Coffin. It feels good, but after a while it got too hot on my spine and I had to move around so I didn't feel burned. I'm certain it's doing good things. Light therapy is super helpful, but the coffin is a little difficult to get in and out of. It's not a huge problem, I'm weak after being in bed and on the couch for two years.

I had my thymus injection - the one in your booty. I found out it stimulates stem cell production. I get those every day.

After that, I had to re-do 8 minutes on the Global Diagnostic. There was some kind of problem with it saving my info. I'm not sure, but I might have moved the little sticky tab on my ankle. You must stay still for the whole thirty minutes.

We had lunch from Judi's again - same as yesterday. I'd gotten through everything so, we had an hour to spare and I took a much needed nap outside. I conked out.

After lunch I did a 10-pass ozone treatment. They stick a needle in your arm, pull blood out into a bulb hanging on a stand. The blood passes through a machine, is infused with ozone, and then passed back into your body. They do that 10 times. The nurse has to monitor you because the blood will just keep filling the bulb. I almost topped mine out once. Apparently this can wreck the machine. The nurse and his assistant were running back and forth multi-tasking, which was exasperating, but they got it done. It took about an hour. As usual, you can't move your arm and my shoulder was killing me by the end.

Finally, I had a Meyer's Cocktail and a glutathione drip. The day finished 4pm, but we still had to sit in traffic for an hour and a half.

Make no mistake, these are hard days. I'm exhausted and my body aches. It may sound like a wellness retreat, but it's a lot of hard work. Like I said, I'm not used to being out, being around people, or walking as much as we do. They split therapies onto two floors. I haven't exercised this much in years. It will be worth it. I can feel it. I can't say I have much improvement just yet. I have noticed that my sinuses feel clearer, but I'm physically and mentally depleted, whatever improvements I feel are over-shadowed by that. My entire body hurts. I also feel overwhelmed. It's emotional to go through all this and know that this is only the beginning. I hear people saying you should healing takes a year. That's not fun to think about.

Infusio is not a well-oiled machine just yet. They do well, considering how much they are orchestrating. It's a lot. Because the technology and information is constantly changing, they like to adapt quickly and this means there are periods of modification. They're currently implementing a new schedule and the ACT program. You can find more info about that on their Facebook group page. I don't quite understand it yet.

End of Day 3 looking tore up from the floor up

End of Day 3 looking tore up from the floor up

My only other complaint is that procedures aren't explained fully. Lyme patients are researchers. Forced to be our own doctors, we do our own research and find our own answers. It's a little strange for me to take someone's word for it. I'd like to know what I'm getting and why. I sort of feel like I'm being tossed around from one treatment to the next and I'm constantly having to ask "what's this one do?" I'm sure I'm not alone. On the first day, they gave us a printed schedule (which is very handy) and it feels like Summer camp activities. You gotta keep your schedule going or it messes up the whole day. I felt a little lacking in the information department, but I'm trying to trust the process. I know they're doing good work and they are sincere. I know it. I mention my complaints, not because I'm upset, but I see room for improvement and I want anyone going to Infusio to know what to expect. I felt a little blind going in.

More tomorrow! Post questions in the comments!

Infusio - Day Two

OMG. Today was way better than yesterday, but it's still a little like medieval torture.

  • IVs - Glutathione, Meyers Cocktail, Iron

  • Lunch

  • Hyperbaric Chamber

  • Squish Pants (SlimYonic)

  • Thymus injection

  • Light Coffin (Novo-bed)

Day Two started out with 3 hours of IVs (Iron, Glutathione, and Meyer's Cocktail).

  • Glutathione: Peptide (antioxidant)

  • Meyer's Cocktail: (Commonly has) Magnesium chloride, Calcium gluconate, B-Complex, Vitamin C

  • Iron: Essential nutrient. Increased energy and easier breathing.

Afterward, Adam picked up lunch from Julie's Deli downstairs. Their veggie teriyaki (without the teriyaki sauce) is good. Simple, easy food that doesn't upset my stomach. The IVs were less painful today and because there were fewer people running around the office; it was less chaotic. The weather was great. My husband and I sat out on the penthouse patio most of the day - people were still talking and yammering all day and I just needed quiet.

After lunch I sat in the hyperbaric chamber for 1/2 an hour. It basically looks like a small shuttlecraft from Star Trek. You climb inside the pod, lay back on pillows. There is a calming blue light. They attach an oxygen mask to your face and you lay back while the pressure is removed? Put in? I don't quite understand how it works, but it feels like you're on an airplane. My ears popped like I was gaining altitude. I took a short nap, but felt slightly panicky inside. Otherwise, it was boring in there. They have a TV inside, but it doesn't work at the moment.

And then it was time for the Squish Pants. I went into a small side room, took off my pants, put on a pair of paper pants, slid into these heavy puffy pants and laid down. The pants fill with air and it squishes you starting at your thighs and moving down to your ankles. It's a little like those massage chairs at Brookstone. It's not comfortable. It feels like when you're a kid and you play dog pile; just a heavy, uncomfortable pressure. That lasted about 1/2 an hour. It's supposed to help with lymphatic drainage. I will say this, I had a respectable bowel movement when I got home.

The thymus injection is one shot in your booty. That's super easy. I don't know what the thymus injection does. Sorry. You get it every day.

And finally, the Light Coffin - which they call the "laser bed". It a lighted coffin you lay in for 6-20 minutes. It has random light phases - red light, infrared, that sort of thing. You get naked and lie inside. It doesn't close all the way like a real coffin, but it closes enough that I felt claustrophobic. I didn't feel comfortable with the lid all the way down. The bed warms up, and this is the most relaxing part of the day. The lights themselves are bright, but today I brought an eye mask.

Overall, today was easy and was over quick. I also feel a lot better tonight than I did yesterday when we got home. The staff is very nice and accommodating. I'm becoming aquainted with the other Lymies. I'm not there to make life-long friends, but I'm happy to talk to people and everyone is great. I feel like I want to give people their space. There were people there who were on their second week at Infsusio acting like it was a slumber party, cackling, talking. That's annoying. I wish it was quieter, but I only have eight more days to go.

Update: When I got home, I had a nice burst of energy, different from how I've felt before. It felt like real energy if that makes sense. However, after I wrote this, I hit the wall. I have a slight headache, shoulder pain, and my ears are ringing. I'm also getting small muscle spasms - all which are normal lyme symptoms. Time for bed.

Post questions in the comments. More tomorrow!

p.s. I'm kind of poo brained today, so this really isn't my best writing.